一位坚定反共者的内心独白
作者：何兴强
编辑：钟然 责任编辑：罗志飞 校对：熊辩 翻译：何兴强
我曾经是一名修炼观音法门的弟子，学习打坐和祈祷上帝，从 2002年开始就学习打坐，对于信仰和上帝有坚定的探索和不断的追求。我始终相信耶稣的救赎，相信主耶稣的生命的献祭救赎了世人的罪孽！主耶稣牺牲自己的生命成就了千千万万信靠他的人，让主耶稣的生命走进每个信靠他救恩的人的心中，让他们的生命再造。主耶稣的伟大是超越一切世俗的想法成就了上帝伟大救赎的计划。
我在中国大陆就一直有信仰的追求，我信仰的宗教和打坐灵修法门被共产党定义为邪教，也时常参加家庭教会学习圣经，唱赞美诗，因为中国共产党的压迫，心中的苦闷和压抑无法言表！我来到美国成为坚定的反共者，追求生命的救赎，不管打坐也好还是任何其他的宗教也好。真正能走进人的生命，让人生命再造，并且了解终极的生命的意义。这才是宗教的价值所在。佛教的了脱生死和儒家的“朝闻道夕死可矣”都是对生死的诠释和人类道德的教化，但是这些宗教没有真正生命的实践和救赎以及新生命的体验！只有主耶稣才是人生命的终极救赎。只有完全信靠主耶稣才能获得真正的、彻底的、生命的救赎！
现在有人问我，我就会对他们说“我完全信靠主耶稣”，请记住信靠非常重要，信心非常重要。对于耶稣的信心会成就我们完全的生命的救赎，这不是打坐可以完全做到的事情，信靠主耶稣让我们找到生命真正的意义！主耶稣被钉十字架！他的被钉十字架让自己的生命无限的放大，进入每一个相信他，信靠他的人的心中，让每一个信靠他的人的生命成为新的生命，我的生命因为相信主耶稣而有了依靠，并且有了真正活着的力量。
共产主义和共产党作为无神论的倡导者打压基督徒，迫害真正信仰上帝的人，简直是天理难容！我在美国参加反共组织，我在美国和中国参加打坐的灵修组织——观音法门。后来他们得知我参加反共活动，出于组织自保的目的将我除名。我完全理解这样的做法，真正的信仰是打不垮的，也不是任何组织能够决定的，只要你的信仰是建立在磐石上面而不是建立在松散的沙土上面，我的信仰是建立在主耶稣的生命的救赎上面，我全心全意接受主耶稣为自己生命的救赎，我的信仰是建立在磐石上面而不是沙土上面，所以是打不垮的，是摧不毁的，我一定要和共产党坚定斗争到底，耶稣基督是我生命的救赎。这是我内心最大的依靠也是我内心最真实的声音！
《从耶稣的死看中共的灭亡》这是我一直在筹备写的书，也是我内心想要表达的最真实的想法，从耶稣的死里我获得了新的生命，真正迎来了新的生命，这是我生命最大的依靠，共产主义和共产党想要获得永恒，但是他倡导的无神论，以及对于生命的漠视和对于真正信仰上帝的人的压迫和迫害是天理难容的，所以我可以从耶稣的死和耶稣的牺牲看到共产主义终极灭亡的结局！共产主义和共产党最终一定会从历史舞台上消失，被世人唾弃并被丢到垃圾堆里！
“从耶稣的死看中共的灭亡”这不是一个空洞的概念，这是真理和邪恶的对抗，最终邪恶无法战胜真理，耶稣基督就是：道路、真理、生命。邪恶和虚伪、妄自尊大的共产党是无法和真理对抗的，历史告诉我们，无论是独裁的罗马政府还是如今的共产党都无法逃避他的终极宿命，那就是完全接受主耶稣，退出历史舞台。让上帝的声音被世人听到，让上帝的救赎和主耶稣的恩赐成为世人的依靠，而不是共产主义和共产党。政党是为人民服务的，人是上帝最完美的创造。只有耶稣的救恩和上帝的旨意才是永恒。一切想要成为永恒的都会成为历史垃圾，所以共产党和共产主义就是历史垃圾，也最终会成为最肮脏的历史垃圾。
这是我作为一个因为接受主耶稣为生命救主，而获得生命再造的人的内心独白。坚定的反对共产党，让我心向光明，坚定的信靠主耶稣让我生命有了力量和依靠。在这个世界上，最终，正义会战胜邪恶。什么是正义？耶稣基督就是正义的代表，圣经讲“因信称义”，信什么？就是信靠主耶稣，我们生命的救赎的入口就在于：对于耶稣的信仰，你自己的信心，你自己信心是不是足够强大，就决定了你是否能战胜邪恶，耶稣就是正义的化身，因为你信靠主耶稣，所以你就站在了正义的一面，你就是新造的人。“旧事已过，一切都是新的了。”所以相信主耶稣，就是天生的反对共产党，反对邪恶。
“从耶稣的死看共产主义和共产党的灭亡”这是一个最朴素的道理和事实，当你认识到这个事实的时候，你的心里是十分通透和畅快的，你的生命就走入了新的历程，和基督徒的兄弟姊妹讨论耶稣的救赎的时候，你的内心是充满力量的，是有坚定的信仰的支撑的，所以每当和兄弟姊妹分享主耶稣的救恩的时候，心里都是满怀感激的。
这是我找到真正的信仰的基石，从而生命获得救赎的最真切的体验，这种救赎就是来自于耶稣基督！信仰耶稣基督这是真正新生命的开始！任何打压基督徒，忽略上帝存在的党派和组织都是反人类，反人民和反人性的！中国共产党就是这样的存在！所以我完全有理由相信，并且我希望让更多的人明白，从耶稣的死，以及耶稣的复活，真正可以看到共产主义和共产党必将灭亡的事实！
个人的生命因人而异，我自己从阅读儒家经典，佛教书籍到后来学习打坐，后来在非洲工作被绑架，遭受雷劈，死里逃生，对于生命有了终极的思考，越是这样我越觉得主耶稣的伟大！因为我有了真真切切的生命的经历和生死的体验，作为人最大的就是生死，耶稣基督在这一点上，用自己的生命作出了最完美的实践和诠释，为世人作出了最伟大的牺牲，为人类作出了最完美的救赎和恩赐，只要坚定地相信主耶稣，我们的生命就有了真正的盼望，圣经讲“信、望、爱”。坚信主耶稣基督，生命有了盼望，并且将耶稣基督的爱通过我们的信心散播出去，活出主耶稣基督的样子！这也就是主耶稣基督救赎的真正含义所在。
我反对共产党的最根本的出发点就是，共产主义无神论否认上帝的存在，只要是真正信仰上帝，就被共产党定义为邪教，这是天理难容的，民运人士时常会辩论的一个核心点就是，真反共还是假反共，其实核心的一点我们必须要明白，为什么反共，共产党是否认上帝的存在，没有敬畏心，所以它就会无所畏惧、胡作非为、恶贯满盈、天理难容。因为共产党认为自己就是天理！所以共产党的所做所为都是天理难容的！
反共的人是与邪恶势不两立的，与黑暗和邪恶划清界限的人，所以他们都是站在光明一面的人，站在正义的一面的人，而耶稣基督就是正义的化身，所以真正信靠主耶稣基督的人，都是天生反共的人，这是一个普遍的事实无需解释，无需争辩。
主耶稣，你用生命诠释了什么是真正的爱，你让世人看到了真正的救赎，你的生命因为被钉十字架，完成了上帝完美的救赎计划，你的生命没有终结，你用自己的生命完美地诠释了什么是真正的永恒。主耶稣基督，我会虔诚地接受你为我生命的救主，让你的生命走进我的生命，让我获得新的生命，我的新生命来自于耶稣基督的救恩和完美的救赎计划！主耶稣基督！我要完完全全的信靠你，让你成为我生命的主宰！将我的私欲和自私一同被钉在十字架上，让我获得新的生命的升华！旧事已过一切都是新的，主耶稣基督，无论我在软弱和刚强的时候你都与我同在，你的生命住在我的生命里，我的生命一无是处，是你的生命真正成就了我的生命，你在任何时候都眷顾我，眷顾我的软弱，眷顾使我远离傲慢，我完全信靠主耶稣基督，我自己的傲慢和自私完全和你一同钉死在十字架上！我同你一起从死里复活，复活的我就是新造的我！我相信这个完美的救赎计划，这是你对世人作出的完全的牺牲！
我要完全的信靠主耶稣！全心全意接受主耶稣基督为我生命的救主！我相信主耶稣基督！从而使我获得生命的再造！
这是我内心的完全的独白，也是我奉主耶稣基督的命所做的最虔诚的祷告！
阿门！
Jesus Let Me Experience a Recreated Life
— The Inner Monologue of a Firm Anti-Communist
Author: He Xingqiang
Editor: Zhong Ran Executive Editor: Luo Zhifei Proofreader: Xiong Bian Translator: He Xingqiang
I was once a disciple practicing the Quan Yin Method, learning meditation and praying to God. Since 2002, I have been meditating, pursuing faith, truth, and the existence of God with determination. I have always believed in the salvation of Jesus, and in the sacrificial offering of His life, which redeemed the sins of mankind. The Lord Jesus gave His life for millions who trust in Him, allowing His life to enter the hearts of all who receive His salvation, recreating their lives. The greatness of the Lord Jesus surpasses all worldly thinking and fully manifests God’s magnificent plan of redemption.
In mainland China, I had always pursued faith. But the spiritual practices I followed—meditation and the Quan Yin Method—were labeled as “evil cults” by the Communist Party. I also joined house churches, studied the Bible, and sang hymns, yet all of this had to be done under the oppression of the CCP. The anguish and repression in my heart could hardly be expressed. After coming to the United States, I became a firm anti-communist, continuing my pursuit of salvation. Whether through meditation or other religions, none of them can truly enter a person’s life and recreate it from within. That is the ultimate purpose of true faith. Buddhism speaks of liberation from reincarnation, Confucianism speaks of “hearing the Way and being ready to die,” but these do not offer true spiritual rebirth or salvation. Only the Lord Jesus is the ultimate salvation for human life. Only by completely trusting in Him can one receive true and complete redemption.
Now, when people ask me, I say to them: “I fully trust in the Lord Jesus.”
Remember: trust is essential, faith is essential. Our faith in Jesus brings about our complete salvation. Meditation cannot achieve this. Trusting in Jesus gives us the true meaning of life. The Lord Jesus was crucified, and through His crucifixion, His life was magnified infinitely, entering the hearts of all who believe in Him, transforming them into new creations. My own life gained true strength and grounding because I believe in the Lord Jesus.
Communism and the Communist Party, as promoters of atheism, suppress Christians and persecute those who truly believe in God. This is utterly intolerable! I joined anti-communist organizations in the United States. When the spiritual organization I practiced with—the Quan Yin Method—learned about my anti-communist activities, they removed me for their own protection. I fully understand their decision. True faith cannot be destroyed, nor can it be decided by any organization. If your faith is built on the solid rock rather than on shifting sand, it cannot be shaken. My faith is built on the salvation of the Lord Jesus. I have accepted Him wholeheartedly as the Redeemer of my life. My faith stands on the rock and cannot be destroyed. I will fight the Communist Party with unwavering determination. Jesus Christ is my salvation and my deepest inner voice.
“Seeing the Fall of the CCP Through the Death of Jesus” is the book I have long wanted to write, the most genuine expression of my heart. From the death of Jesus, I received new life. This is my greatest source of strength. Communism seeks eternity, but its atheism, its contempt for human life, and its persecution of true believers is abhorrent. From the death and sacrifice of Jesus, I can clearly see the inevitable downfall of Communism. The CCP will eventually vanish from history, despised and thrown into the garbage heap of mankind.
“Seeing the fall of the CCP through the death of Jesus” is not an empty concept. It is the confrontation between truth and evil. Evil can never triumph over truth. Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. The hypocritical and arrogant Communist Party cannot defeat the truth. History has shown that neither ancient tyrannies—such as the Roman Empire—nor the modern CCP can escape their ultimate fate: to bow before the Lord Jesus and withdraw from the stage of history. Let the voice of God be heard by the world, and let His salvation become the reliance of mankind—not Communism. Governments exist to serve the people, and people are God’s most perfect creation. Only the salvation of Jesus and the will of God are eternal. Everything that seeks to become “eternal” will become historical garbage—including the CCP.
As someone whose life has been recreated through accepting Jesus as Lord and Savior, this is my inner confession. Standing firmly against the CCP allows my heart to walk in light; trusting the Lord Jesus gives my life strength and purpose. In this world, justice will ultimately triumph over evil. What is justice? Jesus Christ is justice itself. The Bible says: “Justified by faith.”
Faith in what? Faith in the Lord Jesus. The doorway to salvation lies in your faith—whether your faith is strong enough to overcome evil. Because Jesus is the embodiment of justice, those who trust Him stand on the side of justice. You no longer walk with darkness; you become a new creation: “The old has passed away; behold, all things have become new.” Therefore, believing in Jesus naturally leads to rejecting the evil of the CCP.
This truth—that the death of Jesus reveals the inevitable fall of Communism—is simple yet profound. Once you understand it, your heart becomes clear and free. When I discuss the salvation of Jesus with Christian brothers and sisters, my heart is filled with strength and unwavering faith. Every time I share the gospel, I am full of gratitude.
This is the cornerstone of my true faith, the deepest experience of salvation. This salvation comes only from Jesus Christ. Faith in Him is the beginning of the new life. Any organization or regime that persecutes Christians or denies God’s existence is anti-human, anti-people, and anti-nature. The Chinese Communist Party is exactly such an entity. Therefore, I have every reason to believe—and I hope more people will understand—that through the death and resurrection of Jesus, we can clearly see the inevitable downfall of Communism.
Everyone has different life experiences. From reading Confucian classics and Buddhist texts to later practicing meditation, to being kidnapped in Africa, struck by lightning, and surviving death, I have gained deep reflection on life. The more I experienced, the more I realized the greatness of the Lord Jesus. He offered the ultimate explanation of life and death. With His own life, He gave the perfect sacrifice for humanity. As long as we firmly believe in Jesus, our lives gain true hope. The Bible speaks of faith, hope, and love. When we trust in Jesus Christ, hope arises within us, and His love flows through us. To live out His love is the true meaning of His salvation.
The fundamental reason I oppose the Communist Party is that Communism, grounded in atheism, denies God. Anyone who truly believes in God is labeled a “cult member.” This is intolerable. Among pro-democracy activists, the debate about “true anti-communism vs. fake anti-communism” is constant. But the core issue is simple:
Why oppose the CCP?
Because the CCP denies God, has no reverence, and thus fears nothing—committing countless atrocities, utterly intolerable in the sight of heaven. The CCP claims itself to be “heaven’s way,” which is why everything it does is against heaven.
Those who oppose the CCP stand on the side of light and justice, drawing a clear boundary with darkness. Jesus Christ is the embodiment of justice; therefore, those who truly trust Him are naturally anti-communist. This needs no explanation or debate—it is simply the truth.
Lord Jesus, You revealed the true meaning of love through Your sacrifice. You showed the world the path of salvation. Through the cross, You completed God’s perfect redemptive plan. Your life did not end; You demonstrated what eternity truly means. Lord Jesus Christ, I accept You as the Savior of my life. Let Your life enter mine and recreate me. My new life comes from Your salvation and God’s perfect plan.
Lord Jesus Christ, I trust You completely. Become the Lord of my life. Nail my selfishness and pride to the cross with You, so that I may rise into a renewed life. The old has passed away; all things have become new. Whether I am weak or strong, You are with me. Your life dwells in me. I am nothing; it is Your life that fulfills mine. You watch over me, correct my arrogance, and strengthen my weakness. I trust You with all my heart. My pride and selfishness have been crucified with You. I have risen with You from death, and the resurrected “me” is a new creation. I believe in Your perfect salvation, Your ultimate sacrifice for mankind.
I will fully trust in the Lord Jesus and accept Him with all my heart as the Savior of my life. Through Him, my life has been reborn.
This is my inner confession, and my most sincere prayer in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
